It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
They told the four-year old.
While she was struggling to understand
In this world that seemd so cold

«It’s not your fault, it’s not you fault
These these secrets that we share
And all though you die inside
I really don’t care»
barn hysj

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
He whispered to my five-year old ear
While he let me know what I had to do
I’s everything i feared

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
As he undressed my six-year old body
And you gave me so many pills
To drug me down and keep me groggy

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
I was no seven of age
I was trying to break free
But the kept me in their cage

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
But you have to go with this man
Your seven year old body has to satisfy him
Because you fear who I am»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
But I’ll use you as my doormat
Let me molest you’re little body
It’s the only thing you’re good at»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
Now quickly remove your clothes
You’re pretty much my property now
That’s just the way it goes»

The_window_broke_into_pieces_I_by_whiteviolet

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
That my eight-year old body got raped
The feeling of splitting in half
And that’s how my heart got shaped

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
The nine-year old with bloody underwear
With no idea where to turn
And no one to really care

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
It’s just that you’re so ugly
Of course we have to tell you
And you are so chubby»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
But you can’t eat with us
We loose our appetite by looking at you
And don’t you dare try to sit with us on the bus»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
I am the age of ten
They had abused me
For so long then

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
That your mom and dad is screaming in the living-room
All this time you’re wishing
You’d never left her whom.»

divoce

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
My first baby you killed
Did you know I really loved her?
But you did’t care about my will

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
You can’t even kill yourself right?
You are such a failure
Just stod putting up a fight»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not you fault
But you are in my power
You’ll always be mine
every minute, every hour»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
My second baby come and went
You killed that as well
Not a thought on it you spent.

abortion

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
So many men have harmed me
It feels like I deserve it
Is suicide the only key?

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
The bruises on my inner-thigh
Did you know that they hurt so much
That all I did was cry?

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
Now hurry up and remove your clothes
You are pretty much my property
But that’s just the way it goes»

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
But I carry all the shame!
I’m the one you blamed
And my heart was your aim

shame red«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
Then why didn’t they show me that?
All my tears just let you
to call me a little brat

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
I didn’t mean to cause you harm»
Who are you trying to fool?
You’re the reason for the scars on my arm

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
Am I supposed to find that out on my own?
How can I do that?
Blaming myself is all I’ve ever known

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault»
I wish you had told me that then
Maybe I’d be better of
Not so scared of men

«It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault
Is it me you blame?»
No, it is myself I blame
And I swear to you, I’ll never trust again.

© Fragile 2013

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5 responses to “It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault

  1. Veldig bra skrevet og veldig sterkt.

    Helt ufattelige grusomme handlinger du har vært utsatt for.

    Tenker på deg <3

    Mange gode klemmer til deg <3

  2. Utrolig velskrevet og hjerteskjærende. Tenker på deg og håper du blir bedre med tiden <3 du er virkelig dyktig og har mye å leve for :)

  3. Åh så vakkert du skriver <3 Sterkt, rørende og fint. Jeg rives med av ordene dine. Stå på kjære deg, jeg heier på deg. Sender deg noen styrkeklemmer <3

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