I know you know everything
But still, let me explain
Why I’ve been hiding
It’s because of all my shame
I’m sorry i don’t look so great
My heart is really torn
But still I hope you understand me
Cause I’ve been alone since I was born
You’ll see I have my gards up
I’m suspicious all the time
But you see, I have lost so much
Of the things that should have been mine
Do you see the child that faces
Ridicule and hurtful words?
Being told they’re useless and unworthy,
Is all that I have heard
Do you see the wounded spirit
Destroyed by someone’s lust?
Now finding it hard to live life,
Carrying the scars of a broken trust
I try to see you as my father
A safe place to come
But you see this is colored
By the father of my own
I often ask through anger and hurt
And through tears the questions ‘Why’
And where was God in the middel of my life?
Did He ever hear my cry?
And why, Lord, did you not respond
And stop the evil act
Did your heart break
when you saw your child attacked?
I’m sure it must have hurt you, Lord,
To see your child suffer
And to see them still dealing with
The inflicted sin of another
I try to believe you love me
But I do have a plea
Jesus, just please remember
My abuser also said he loved me